She's emo? You'd cut too, if you've been through what she has. She's anorexic? You'd be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She's a whore? She made one mistake that cost her her reputation. She's a show off? Her parents abused her, & she's never heard of praise. She's loud? She's invisible at home, & she wants to be heard. She's quiet? She's afraid to speak, because she's scared to get made fun of. She's fat? She binges, because she misses her dead brother. She's a geek? She wants to get into college, so she can support her poverty ridden family. She doesn't wear Abercrombie? Her parents have been out of work for months, clothes aren't her top priority if she can't even afford food. She's ugly? Tell me, what is the definition of beauty? Who are you to judge them? You know their name, not their story.
Lets just sum this all up and then i’ll go finish my homework.
Woke up in a pissy mood
Got in a fight with my boyfriend (kinda)
broke up with boyfriend
Went to a wedding rehersal with my neighbor
said neighbor got sick and we had to take her to the hospital
boyfriend drove me, jim and my neighbor to the hospital.
he stayed with us till we knew for sure what was going on.
we all went home (minus neighbor who had to stay over night)
got into huge fight with parents
havent been back sense then.
Hung out with my boyfriend
Applied for jobs.
found a more permanent place to stay
Sense then i have been staying with my friend. Shes been such a major help. I dont know where i would be right now if her and her family hadnt of taken me in. I will forever be in debt to them.
A couple times a day i get kinda sad thinking about the fact that none of my family has tried to get in contact with me. But then i remember all of the fights and how shitty i have been treated there. My own sister, who went through the same stuff as me and left too, says im no longer her sister unless i go back. Well i refuse. As long as i have places to stay, or a bench to sleep on (because i would rather do that then go back), then im NOT going back. And no one can make me. Im 17. Its legal for me to do this.
Well to start off my lovely day yesterday, my boyfriend pissed me off by blowing up my facebook with a thousand messages as soon as i woke up. Then i spent a couple hours cleaning, then i found out that im most likely not getting my senior pictures done. So i was already in a bad mood. Then me and my boyfriend broke up because he pissed me off beyond belief because he lied to me at the wrong time. Then i had to go to a wedding rehersal with my 76 year old neighbor and help her set everything up and stuff. At the end of the rehersal she got really dizy and almost passed out so we called an ambulance, they looked her over, said she should probably go to the hospital tonight, even though she refused to go in the ambulance. I called Jim, and my boyfriend and my boyfriend picked up Jim and then brought him up to the church and we all drove in seprate cars to the hospital. My neighbor really wanted me to go with her into the room when they took her back so i sat back there with her while they ran a crap load of tests on her. I was so scared that something was really wrong with her and when we found out she had to stay the night there, i instantly said i was staying. She didnt argue. Then Jim decided to say i couldnt stay and forced me to come home. I was starving so i didnt argue it as much as i should have. In the car (this is where things get insane) Jim decided to start bitching about my boyfriend even though he just saved us. I was being calm about it all for once in my life when all of a sudden i asked him “can we cover one thing really fast without getting mad at each other?” and then everything blew up. He said fine, and i asked him why he threatened my boyfriend and why he was in his face the other morning. That Miss Kathy and Stano both told me he had gotten in his face. He instantly started bitching and then we were finally at my house so i said whatever fine im going inside so we dont end up getting into a huge fight. I went into my house and in my room and just shut the lights off and laid in bed and kept talking to Stano. Jim came barging in and i still tried to be calm and simply said that i was under a lot of stress lately and he cut me off before i could finish what i was saying by saying “your under so much stress because you have to worry about keeping your fucking sex stories straight with your boyfriend!” so i instantly snapped and started screaming. I can only hold my temper back for so long and he pushed me too far by saying that. I screamed “im under a lot of fucking stress because its my fucking senior and i have too much to do this year so dont say im stressed out because of that bullcrap when im not!” and then there was a lot more screaming and it ended with him saying that in order to keep me from seeing stano he was going to send me to indiana to live with his cousins. So i instantly got even more pissed. So there was more screaming and i said if he did that i would kill myself. but then i realized that you can legally leave at 17 so i just said im leaving and they cant stop me and packed my bags and left. Now i just have to find a place i can stay at permanently. I have places i can stay at for like a night or two but not for good. Kinda just figuring it all out right now i guess. But the funny thing is, neither of my parents tried to stop me. They sat on the couch and didnt even say anything when i said bye and walked out the front door. Obviously they care so fucking much. Anyways, im hungry so time to find fooooddd<333333333
I asked if you were home yet and you lied and said you were helping your neighbor pick up leaves, when in all fucking reality you were walking to my fucking house. I told you to fucking leave me alone for the day and you sneak behind my back and go to my neighbors to drop off a rose and your fucking phone. I dont want to fucking talk to you so why the fuck would i need your phone. Im so beyond pissed off at you right now, you really have no idea. So now i have to pretend im in a good mood when im there tonight with my neighbor and pretend i dont want to kick your damn ass, when in all reality, that is ALL i want to do right now. I hope you dont expect me to take it with me or if i do, to have anything to do with it tonight. Im getting even more sick of you then i already am. So congrats.