You left school early, said you had to go to the shop to do a tune up and something on the Jimmy that you’ve been bragging about how easy it’s gonna be. That was all before school was even over. School ends at 220 and all of that was during 12 something. It’s now 714 and your still not home. I had to eat dinner alone with your mom and grandma while they talked about you the whole time and drove me insane. All of this was after you promised me today and tomorrow you wouldn’t go to the shop and we would just hang out. So thanks for lying. I so can’t wait till you get home so I can do anything possible to ignore you. Fuck you! I live with you so you can help me through this and so we can spend more time together. Obviously that’s working out.
Realizing that someone who was part of your daily routine, isn’t a part of your life anymore. A person you would always send good morning/goodnight messages to, talk to about your day, make jokes with, hang out with, do all kind of things together.. it’s nothing but a memory now. It sucks how such great times can fade away and there’s nothing you can really do about it.
Do you ever just sit there and wonder if somebody really means what they say because their actions don’t always match up to their words and then you start to feel sad because you’ll never know for sure and you’ll never feel what somebody else feels, and all there is to do is take somebodys word.